neverending

Well, I asked my friend to read the blog. My friend who knows this kind of condition (I mean my friend experienced before), said that this kind of feeling would be 没完没了, so called never-ending. Huh?! Why? Is it because how I describe the situation? How I describe the situation and "environment" when I am mixing with S? Hmm, I see. But another thing is my friend said that from the blog, can be seen that I am been trying my best to overcome that kind of dependence feeling. Ya, I am struggling hard to overcome it. (Or should I say I am actually just let it be, no need struggle --> talking craps again)

Ya, I know that that kind of dependence feeling is just 一线之差 (is it called the small difference?) with the so called "like" feeling. I have been feel very annoyed and be in dilemma because of this. However, I try to make myself clear. The process was just kinda hard...T.T...

I have been got stuck within the response of avoiding and facing S. Facing S? Or avoiding S? Both of these might create the greater feeling of dependence and of course the never-ending condition. Well, now choose the former ones. But sometimes latter ones will "come" and interfere my thoughts. The latter ones I will deal it with the busyness, trying my VERY BEST to keep myself OCCUPIED. My life already occupied by studies and FYP stuffs and yet I am trying to make myself even occupied. Ya, you have seen the right words. I am trying to make myself EVEN MORE OCCUPIED (hope this won't create greater stress that cause me "suffocated").

Ok, continue my mission to make myself even more OCCUPIED...!!!