能看见你笑，
能想象你笑的样子，
无论是什么样的笑容，
被我逗笑，
惊喜的笑，
打招呼的笑容，
都能让我把当时的烦恼都给抛到远远的，
没错，
你就是有这样的魅力!
所以，
我正在想象你的笑容...
一切的一切，
这是好感吗?
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Thursday, October 7, 2010
glad
好开心哦...今天你说你在大学的生活里，我算是你的好朋友，信得过的朋友. 你知道我听了后多开心吗? 我开心因为我是一个称职的朋友. 今天，我其实已累坏了，可是听到你这么说，再累都无所谓了. 也不太清楚今天为何我今天特别火爆. 也许是因为我有急事要办，可是就是因为早上去复诊的医院的医生及护士超没效率的服务态度，拖慢了我该完成的事，及浪费我至少两个小时的时间，超可恶的!!!
Have no idea from when onwards we had such a chat. Just wanna let you to know that, I am very happy for this...^^ 或者可以这么说，我其实希望能从你口中听到这句话.
Have no idea from when onwards we had such a chat. Just wanna let you to know that, I am very happy for this...^^ 或者可以这么说，我其实希望能从你口中听到这句话.
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
on and off
Since last week, if not mistaken, noticed that the swollen on my neck (that supposed to be shrunken) is back to swelling and harden. Actually I was kinda worry that. Is the dosage prescribed by doctor is not suitable to me? I followed the instructions for medication. Why? What happened? Well, it doesn't cause pain, however, just feel uncomfortable, it shrinks for a certain period then back again. Became fatter (as a possible indication), not at all, after I went back hometown, then weighed myself on the weighing scale, the scale showed 44.5kg.
You all can't imagine how much I ate during the study week until exam ended. So, where is the food go to? The symptoms of hyperthyroid is quite obvious which is accumulation of fat on stomach but not at other parts (which is very common and is VERY HARD to avoid it), it only very obvious on stomach, which for a girl, will be very particular about. Just 5 days holiday, even I continue with my habit after meal, STILL...=.= Really damn annoying. The low waist jeans now no need belt, not that loose as before this. So, this means?! Getting serious or what? Should I consult the specialist again about the problem?
I was hoping the condition won't get worse. I am still hoping. AND I did take care of myself...
You all can't imagine how much I ate during the study week until exam ended. So, where is the food go to? The symptoms of hyperthyroid is quite obvious which is accumulation of fat on stomach but not at other parts (which is very common and is VERY HARD to avoid it), it only very obvious on stomach, which for a girl, will be very particular about. Just 5 days holiday, even I continue with my habit after meal, STILL...=.= Really damn annoying. The low waist jeans now no need belt, not that loose as before this. So, this means?! Getting serious or what? Should I consult the specialist again about the problem?
I was hoping the condition won't get worse. I am still hoping. AND I did take care of myself...
another one
你知道吗，能见到你是很开心的，见到你，说真的，我真的很兴奋，而不是普通的开心. 我喜欢与你说话，见到你；原因...大概是因为我们志同道合吧. 也许我们有太多共同点. 不太知道你对我的印象是什么，我想告诉你的是我真的很开心能见到你. 能看到你笑，更是能让我把烦恼也忘了，好想念你的笑容，你被我逗笑的样子...
本人太多”故事“来写...嗯，可能可以从中找到情趣及乐趣. 认为了解我的人就会知道这些故事的真实性，不过先告诉大家，我是有语文基础的，所以要考虑及衡量那个因素...
本人太多”故事“来写...嗯，可能可以从中找到情趣及乐趣. 认为了解我的人就会知道这些故事的真实性，不过先告诉大家，我是有语文基础的，所以要考虑及衡量那个因素...
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
random
我在你心目中，有过地位吗? 你说啊...
我是那么地重视你，以你为中心，处处为你着想，怕你受伤，你有珍惜吗? 我的心是很痛，当我知道你其实当着不一回事，不以为意. 努力忍着不流泪，不伤心，努力试着不在意你所作的，甚至觉得我是一厢情愿. 其实我想要的不是这样，我只是想你知道我是喜欢你的，想要引你注意...当你就这么敷衍我时，我的心犹如刀割，你了解那种痛吗?
很努力地尝试不想你，可是却非常想见到你. 这就是矛盾. 对你说，你可以对我说你的烦恼，也许那个人对你来说比较重要，或许我根本什么都不是，你只是把我当作生活中可以利用的人. 我有时候是真的有点妒忌那个人.
本人看剧场看得有点过分，或者太闲没事做，这故事如有雷同，纯属巧合.
我是那么地重视你，以你为中心，处处为你着想，怕你受伤，你有珍惜吗? 我的心是很痛，当我知道你其实当着不一回事，不以为意. 努力忍着不流泪，不伤心，努力试着不在意你所作的，甚至觉得我是一厢情愿. 其实我想要的不是这样，我只是想你知道我是喜欢你的，想要引你注意...当你就这么敷衍我时，我的心犹如刀割，你了解那种痛吗?
很努力地尝试不想你，可是却非常想见到你. 这就是矛盾. 对你说，你可以对我说你的烦恼，也许那个人对你来说比较重要，或许我根本什么都不是，你只是把我当作生活中可以利用的人. 我有时候是真的有点妒忌那个人.
本人看剧场看得有点过分，或者太闲没事做，这故事如有雷同，纯属巧合.
Saturday, October 2, 2010
the purpose
There are some people asked me about the reason of having that AMOUNT of blogs. So this is the reason: MSN spaces (spaces.live) is kinda publicize, many people can just step in to read. However, blogspot, you can't search without knowing the name of the blog unless I tell the people who is interested to. What I meant here is, is not easy to track a person's blog unless you know the person.
Blogs in spaces.live has migrated to wordpress.com because of certain reasons. There, because of the publicity, I normally won't put post my feelings and those silly or whatsoever thoughts there or anything I said that might hurt a person's feeling. The last reason is because normally I won't lost my temper (is childish anyway), or voice out my thoughts or my unsatisfactory out to the people I am angry to or whatever. I just bear with it. I don't know why I behaved so. I know I need to voice out if I have been unsatisfied to someone in a polite way. Too bad is I am a person who is kinda straightforward in a certain way. The worst thing in socializing is dealing with person that you don't like to and yet you need to control your mind for not lost control. I do know that in certain times I need to be indirect and euphemistic and I know when I shall do so... Normally what I do is ignore...and if I can't bear with that, I just throw out what I felt in blog, that's it. I am smart enough to use initials to represent the characters involved and readers could have understand what I have written, I presumed. Is this kinda silent way of releasing anger?!
In spaces.live, which is now wordpress.com, I usually make my report there, any happy things, things that are happened in an unusual way and so happened that everytime when I wrote there, it will like a flow chart and some sorta annual report...== I have such feeling, I might cause my readers bored. Ah, whatever...
Blog is meant for self-entertainment, no need to care how people think, and somehow, I have that amount of blogs... I do sort out the genre of the posts...
Blogs in spaces.live has migrated to wordpress.com because of certain reasons. There, because of the publicity, I normally won't put post my feelings and those silly or whatsoever thoughts there or anything I said that might hurt a person's feeling. The last reason is because normally I won't lost my temper (is childish anyway), or voice out my thoughts or my unsatisfactory out to the people I am angry to or whatever. I just bear with it. I don't know why I behaved so. I know I need to voice out if I have been unsatisfied to someone in a polite way. Too bad is I am a person who is kinda straightforward in a certain way. The worst thing in socializing is dealing with person that you don't like to and yet you need to control your mind for not lost control. I do know that in certain times I need to be indirect and euphemistic and I know when I shall do so... Normally what I do is ignore...and if I can't bear with that, I just throw out what I felt in blog, that's it. I am smart enough to use initials to represent the characters involved and readers could have understand what I have written, I presumed. Is this kinda silent way of releasing anger?!
In spaces.live, which is now wordpress.com, I usually make my report there, any happy things, things that are happened in an unusual way and so happened that everytime when I wrote there, it will like a flow chart and some sorta annual report...== I have such feeling, I might cause my readers bored. Ah, whatever...
Blog is meant for self-entertainment, no need to care how people think, and somehow, I have that amount of blogs... I do sort out the genre of the posts...
it's over for this
Ok, wanna announce and confess something here. I have PUT DOWN and LET IT GO!!! I have let go the feeling of dependence towards S. Is kinda relief, you know? When I realized I was some sorta depend spiritually on S, where S doesn't know that, until now I presume S doesn't know that. Again, is just a small glimpse (ok, this is quite a direct translation of 一线之差) from the feeling which I scared the most. I scared to put in feelings to people, the feeling mentioned here is like in terms of towards any gender. You get what I meant? That kind of like. That kind of feeling is the one I scared the most...I scared I misunderstand, I scared I will disappointed, I scared I will get hurt. and the most important, I am not interested, I maybe have that kind of feeling (I said MAYBE) but I am not interested in dealing with relationship. (In the end, I don't think you all understand what I am talking here, I think is kinda ironic...and contradictory...><) I won't want any feeling anymore until the end of my studies for Degree. Maybe I am pathetic...(==''') until I put in feelings to people that appeared to be my savior that time? Or I am a person who is 多情? (==''')
In dealing with this unsure feeling, I have been escaping and avoiding, however the more I was trying to escape, I have been even suffering and at last, after talked to someone who I think I can trust, I tried my best to face S. And yet, I still remember that I put my effort and my thinking into my stuffs, I made myself occupied enough to not to think too much. And somehow, I made it! The feeling is just faded...ya, is just faded, without I even realized.
Sometimes I have been thinking that, am I kinda person who is simple thinking or complicated? What I meant is, am I looked unpredictable?
So, I don't know whether there will be more "interesting" stories to tell...just check it out... This blog is meant for sentimental stuffs which means there will be other stuffs regarding feelings or thoughts that I won't put in very public place.
In dealing with this unsure feeling, I have been escaping and avoiding, however the more I was trying to escape, I have been even suffering and at last, after talked to someone who I think I can trust, I tried my best to face S. And yet, I still remember that I put my effort and my thinking into my stuffs, I made myself occupied enough to not to think too much. And somehow, I made it! The feeling is just faded...ya, is just faded, without I even realized.
Sometimes I have been thinking that, am I kinda person who is simple thinking or complicated? What I meant is, am I looked unpredictable?
So, I don't know whether there will be more "interesting" stories to tell...just check it out... This blog is meant for sentimental stuffs which means there will be other stuffs regarding feelings or thoughts that I won't put in very public place.
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