lyrics-Hologram

Hologram by NICO touches the walls is the second opening song of Fullmetal Alchemist season 2.

Hologram (chinese subtitle)

此刻那雪白的景色正在召唤
我将前往那未知的世界
走在迷茫的旅途中
灰色的天空下
一日一换的地图 浸透了多少个梦想
总有一天
即使如我这段窄小的步伐
是否也终能到达那片云之彼端
故作坚强
几度受伤
仿佛洗刷了心灵
从天而降
点点雨滴
重复进行着漫反射
笔直的光线
纵横交错
也不知将去向何处
向着远方
勇往直前
淡淡的残像 铭刻在眼中
在这片天空下
无论身在何方
都一定能传到
那未知的世界




Hologram (English version)

Invited by a pure white scenery now,
Ill go to a world that I still havent seen

As a lost child, I journeyed
Under the slate-gray sky.
Many dreams blotted through the map that changes daily.

Someday,
Even with my strides as I am tiny -
I wonder if I can get to the other side of those clouds.

The direct light intersects itself,
And without even announcing my destination,
I pierce through everywhere.
The faint afterimage is burnt into my eyes-
Under this sky,
No matter where I am,
I should be able to reach
The world that I still havent seen.

Unknowingly embedded in a black and white sticker -
What is important is that we had hidden.
Light from the stars from the beautiful flowers from stones of the treasure
dream of the noise and the hologram.

Scenes depicting one day against the odd man out
fly like a bubble through the loneliness and frustration.

The road is straight,
and would be stronger than now.
Now been invited to a pure white scenery,
I’ll go to a world that I still haven’t seen.

The light color of the rainbow in the sky is where
a distant voice calls me, shivering every time in the shadow of tomorrow.

The straight, scattered light
pours all at a time in the afternoon after the rain.
Now mix the infinite gradations of
this all under the sky.
We will make sure we will arrive in this world.

past tense

你已经是过去式了...
You already are past tense for me...
I live better without you...
It's alright,
It's ok.

again-Yui

This song is one of the theme songs of the newer version of Fullmetal Alchemist. This is some sort the chinese subtitle of the theme song. Enjoy...

Again

在这思念消失之前

人生还很漫长

遗憾未了之事

还想重头来过

梦的延续 本应继续追寻

蜿蜒小道上 人却绊住脚步

其实并非想回到过往

却仍在找寻失去的天空

别只为了得到理解

摆出那付出牺牲般的悲伤表情

罪的尽头不会是泪水

你需要一直背负着痛苦

在不见出口的感情迷宫中

等到着谁

白色笔记中缀满的心意

多想更坦率地说出口来

到底在逃避什么

莫非是现实

为实现梦想而生

多想大声呐喊 能听见吗

谁能忍受平平庸庸

我已无路可逃

总对你的温柔心存感激

所以想变得坚强

多么怀念

何不欢迎这痛楚

lyrics-Open up your mind

Even when it seems that nothing can go right
and you want to just give up,
if you close your eyes,
you can see the world from your heart.

In this world when life can be so tough
You must be strong
Just believe in yourself and don't you fear
So open up your mind and close your eyes
Take another look from the other side

Even on a lonely night, when you wander afraid,
you may be alone now, but
your feet can take you however far you want to go, so

Just hold on tight, because if you close your eyes,
look inside yourself, there's a shining light there.
Yes, I want you to believe in everything,
You can take another look from the other side.

Just hold on tight, even if your heart is breaking.
Reach into your soul, even if you can't see tomorrow.
Yes, if you have the strength to live,
You can take another look from the other side,
until you find all that is love

I wish for you to have the strength
to make it through this world,
so open up your mind,
and you'll be able to see...
until you find all that is love...

Just remember you are not alone
So don't you fear
Even though you're miles away
I'm by your side
So open up your mind and close your eyes
I'll be there for you no matter where you are

The stars may live for a long time, but that doesn't mean
that the same days will repeat over and over forever.
Noone can see into tomorrow.

Just hold on tight, because if you close your eyes,
look inside yourself, you'll feel a heartbeat.
Yes, I want you to believe in the future.
You can take another look from the other side.

Just hold on tight, even if your heart is breaking.
Reach into your soul, even if you can't see tomorrow.
Yes, there's another world out there.
You can take another look from the other side,
and you'll be able to find all that is love...

Just hold on tight, because if you close your eyes,
look inside yourself, you'll feel a heartbeat.
Yes, I want you to believe in the "future."
You can take another look from the other side

Just hold on tight, even if your heart is breaking.
Reach into your soul, even if you can't see tomorrow.
Yes, there's another world out there.
You can take another look from the other side,
until you find all that is love...

one month

One month just passed as holiday. Another 2 months for holiday. Gonna be jobless starting from next Thursday. Zzz...

What has happened in this one month? Besides 处理 my dilemma. I thought I really let it go totally, but seriously haven't really totally. Still a little bit and it really bothers me sometimes. Time heals, so I just wait the time to bring my dilemma away and also I will give on effort to myself to let go of it. I want to be FREE from this.
I also waited for results. Finally I got it, informed by my friend through handset when I was still at school. I was so nervous that time. Luckily I had no more classes after I received the call. If not, I really scared I can't pay attention in teaching. Overall, still ok, although not what I wanted, results was still ok, not dropped to the very unexpected.

Teaching again...sometimes very free, sometimes very busy. Sometimes, I scolded every time I entered class. Of course I don't wish to scold, but then those students really 欠骂...won't be having breathing difficulty after long time scolding because I used 丹田气...haha. The weird thing is my voice turned a little bit low even though I haven't start to work as teacher in the holiday. What's wrong ya? However, with this lower voice, I can scold and talk louder, shout also louder and 有力...hehe. Can create greater effect for shutting the student's mouth and make the class quiet.

Am I looking forward for the days being jobless or wanna continue working? I have plans in the holiday, although not occupied, I need time to rest too...so most probably won't continue work.
Waiting forward for days later...for rest, relax, plans, anything...

is torturing

Is hard to set a title. I stared at the screen for so long just for a title. Well, straight to the point.

我告诉自己，这三个月假期，可用来整理我的整体思绪，那感觉，考试所带来的压力(以致带来上星期一的病，虽然只是一个晚上，但那病比我在外求学时的病来得更严重; 不说这个了)

我有点relieved的感觉因为假期到了，我有机会可以整理整体的思绪，告诉自己，不再让自己被这种感觉折磨，不再让自己对一个人那么好，不再让自己陷入这种矛盾，再也不要了. Recalling, 偏偏那个时候它太靠近我的年终考试，我还在过渡期, 我好辛苦才让自己真正专心，我不晓得这次的成绩会否因为那来的不是时候的感觉所影响，我知道不会，但还是会有少许的，多多少少, 只希望不会太糟. I did my very best without letting myself screwed in that contradictory so much. I really studied very hard for the exam.

Unfortunately, in the holiday, 真的有点折磨，因为我竟然不敢与他交谈，即使是平时我们会crap all the time, now I even don't know how to start a crap conversation. Start a simple conversation like, "hi", "how are you", seems so hard too... 我想他真的不知道这件事，但...我竟然不知道或忘记了自己是如何与他开始谈天的. When almost getting to sleep, 满脑子都是你. Oh crap! 那时的我是怎么了? 我是惯了那种交谈方式就因为那感觉? 我惯了，感觉不在了，连一个如何与他交谈的方式的回忆都不留? 我想我还是慢慢适应吧, in holiday, is really nothing much to crap about. Oh ya, is true, screw me, I really think too much. 告诉自己我只是想太多. Haiz, I think I really think too much, this hell long holiday really sucks, making room for me to think too much, TOO MUCH of craps. I should have put everything down. 啊......!!! 很烦啊，我是不是自找烦恼?

You know what, I won't let this torture me anymore, I will let it off! Trust me, tomorrow will be better. Just assume that I am a coward that 我以为你知道，其实我知道你根本不会知道我在想什么, 自己心理作祟!

a meaningful day

Well, Monday night was a bad day for me. Damn that day!!! However, I was fine on Tuesday, and totally fine on Wednesday onwards.

On Wednesday, I met up with my friend, Kuan ( in English, I prefer to call her that way ), Well, she is older than me, so, I consider her as my sister. She taught me, no, not to say teach, is inspired me in many ways. I do appreciate her that she always care about me as her friend. I do also care about her.

Actually no one (I mean my friends that know me) actually realized my relationship with my mother (with my family will be a better answer, but with mother is the worst) is bad except her. Don't care how she realized, because I also don't know and I myself don't want to accept the truth that my relationship with my mother is actually not that good until she seriously tell me when we had that conversation on Wednesday. That time, we became colleagues and good friends in that not big and not really small office, so maybe she took that opportunity to understand me. I appreciated that and I certainly won't blame her why she cares too much. I WON'T!

She shared a lot of things with me and she did inspired me and made me realized many things. She has confidence on me that I can do better to fix the relationship with my mother if I can step out one pace (踏出第一步), since I can't change my mother, then maybe I can change myself to influence my mother. Well, I actually don't really understand why she has so great confidence on me while I myself don't have such confidence in myself. By the way, she told me that, she knows my attitude, she knows I am not a person that will give up easily. Oh ya? I hope I am. Let say it is. Since she has confidence on me, then shall I give up without having a try? I think I will let her disappointed if I do so. Agree?

Ok...I just need time...ya, time, I just need that.