testing me

就在我把那一切放下的第二天
她传短讯给我
简单的一句“你在做么”
我也觉得很开心

拜托
请大家别想歪
我只是没想到
只认识三天的人会想要传短讯给我
我们连传了几封
虽然她回答的都很短
但至少她不是冷漠的人
只不过相比之下
我比较热情
比较多话讲
这样也好
至少没冷场

在传短讯的动作结束后
顿时
我在想
是上天要考验我吗？
他认为我还没放下？
所以“安排”这场传短讯的幕
还好我还是过关了
我赢了

dangerous and confused

一切
我与她真正眼对眼的时候
那种莫名感觉涌现
我顿时处于
矛盾及苦恼之中

就在那期间
我会常常注意她
她不在我视线中时
我会一直寻找她的踪影
直到我看到她为止
当时我们是参加一个生活营
她是我同组的组员

刚认识她的时候
她常找碴
让我觉得很反感
后来
对她有点改观
就在那时...
“不妙”的情况发生了

她的发型很酷
很多人以为她是男生
拜托
他们瞎了眼
但我一眼看见她
我就知道...

就在她在与我有真正交集时
真正有意见发表时
我的正眼望着她
我却有点心跳的感觉
我多希望我的感觉是错误的

我因为对她有好感
所以我常讲些废笑话惹她
使她笑
她虽然没有像我有绑牙后的整齐牙齿
但她的笑容是多么的灿烂
She really attracts me


在我还没搞清楚我的性趋向之前，我不要再经历这样的矛盾及苦恼，我很努力地想，我知道我不应想太多，问题是我是不是以情人那种喜欢来对待及想关于这件事情，我自己还在摸索。在我还没想太深之前，我还是“悬崖勒马”。

现在，我已放弃继续想。心情是多么自在。想当时，心情糟透了，矛盾及苦恼到极点。



我觉得有点恶，我写不下去了，再加上我已词穷了。

Forever

The wind-like melody that's moving within our hearts
Vibrantly leads us towards the yet-unseen tomorrow
If we create the future with each things we think
Could we grasp the "moment" the miracle smiles upon?

I feel, I need you
...I just miss you in my life
Please don't let go
Ah Let's join hands
Heading towards a sparkling place in the wide-open future

Open up your heart
And turn this pain and sadness into tenderness
Don't get lost along my way
Both at the moment we met and now, you surpassed time
Shine together with me forever...

The pledge that echoes in this dreary night is fleetingly falling apart
My heart beat to the fate of the stars that pass each other
At the meeting place of the broad sky, our pulses raced
What is there behind those tears you held back?

I will never leave you,
I want to promise you
Don't forget
Ah You gave me the courage to move forward
Let's hold on to it and fly

If we were bonded together
Embrace and don't ever lose the strength of
Protecting the people you can't replace
At the moment I learn my weaknesses, I will become stronger again
Yes, forever

I feel, I need you
...I just need you in my life
Please don't let go
Ah Let's join hands
Heading toward a sparkling place in the wide-open future

Open up your heart
If we share the seemingly broken affection
As it keeps overflowing from our hearts, it will be like heaven
At times when we're bewildered, let's keep building our unending dream
Yes, forever...

Open up your heart
And turn this pain and sadness into tenderness
Don't get lost along my way
Both at the moment we met and now, you surpasses time
Shine together with me forever...








Label: lyrics ( English translation )

终于去写了

搁了这么久的日记，
实在非常过意不去，
终于去写了，
终于去面对我须面对的，
当初一些感觉，
写不下手，
但想了想，
还是去写，
一写还写了五面 （ 我的字体大=.= ）
是写了，
但大部分是事情的经过，
及当时的心情，
并没所想象的会把自己的的那份感觉赤裸的暴露出来，
我知道我失败，
我始终写不出，
我在怕什么?
怕有人会偷看?
也许是吧...

这么多天没写，
很多事情发生，
好消息是
大部分是开心的事，
在写的时候，
也会回忆起当天的情景，
有时还会笑，（不要以为我变态，自己一个人笑 ）
但愿能把这些时光留住...

I really miss you

Hey, pal...
I really miss you...

Starting with a day in a rush,
after a tiring day,
have a chance to get myself a break,
listening to songs,
listening to a smooth song,
a song that caught my attention,
I listen to it over and over again,
because...
I know you will like it.

I think of you in the moment,
I really miss you,
I regretted why I acted so strangely that time
when you leave,
I pretended to be strong,
I tried not to cry...

I really miss you...
miss you, pal...
hope to see you soon...

hiding

Haiz...
what am I hiding?
Hiding my true feeling?
Hiding my expression?
Hiding my true words?

Writing in diary,
write my feelings,
express myself,
record everything I feel necessary
write to keep as memory,
not only in brain,
but also in real.

What am I hiding?
what am I hesitating?
why can't I just straight forward,
write it out bravely,
be brave to face my own feelings...

Tell myself,
I can't hide forever,
I need to face it after all...

what's up now?

Many things to write about actually recently, about feelings, whose? My feelings...
However, those, I wish to keep in my diary. That is the most secret thing I have without shown to the public. Only me, me and me. All about my feelings.

Again, talk about feelings, need expression in words. I need that. Told you, my English not so good, so I can't express myself well sometimes in words. No matter what language I have learnt.

Feeling restless,
without direction,
so called direction-less,

Life today starts with a scolding,
looked at the clock,
what's wrong with me?
Such time I woke. ( 15/11 )

How restless am I,
stop it
Stop It
STOP IT!!!