I am speechless for this

Today, my friend told me a big issue. A shocked ones and enough to make me feel speechless.
She told me that a friend of us told my friends in my group, ( the friend mentioned is from different group of practical, some more different tutor for different group ) that I taught the wrong thing. Their tutor said the calculation I guided them for the first experiment is wrong. She told them very loudly in blaming tone. She blamed me. I am not there that time, if not she won't dare to say so loud.

My friend, let her be S, before telling the issue, she asked me not to angry after knowing this. She said that time the friend who blamed me ( let her be M ) told this very loud. S heard. She felt very not worth for me and angry when M said so about this issue. She said she and her friends who has guided by me won't blame me for this. She said I had guided and helped them so much. If not me, they have been lost. Wah, feel touched. I feel paiseh la when she said that to me. Anyway, I am happy to know many people appreciate my help.

What can I say about this? Angry? I thought I will angry, but NO! But speechless, a terrible ones. I put in effort in searching information and tried my best in doing my best for my own report and help others if they asked to. What I get is this? I don't mind if others don't want accept the help or my points, but just please respect other people's effort. Stand in other people's shoes and think. I just feel very speechless.

I am ok now.

Best friend

I found this song is meaningful to me to express myself to my best friend. Here, I present to you.

I don't have to worry anymore, cause you will be by side when I cry
You always smile at me
I am blessed because you always shine before me
Things that we have missed hastily at time, that's the way it is
Faces that always being looked at
Forever hugging each other
Your smile has helped me endless time, you know
Thank you thank you Best Friend

These plenty happiness that I felt at this moment
All the friends that I have here, you're the best present
I am blessed because you always be by our side
Surely things that I have accomplished here, those things too give me strength (change to strength)
Faces that always being looked at
Forever hugging each other
All of your smile has helped me endless time, you know
Thank you thank you Best Friend

Things that we have missed hastily at time, that's the way it is
Faces that always being looked at
Forever hugging each other
Your smile has helped me endless time, you know
Thank you thank you Best Friend

Always always always my Best Friend

conditions

最近发生许多状况，
好想躲一躲，
好让自己有个呼吸的空间，
暂时躲开这恼人的世界...

hope and hopes

和好
好像只在刹那间
上网对话的那一段时间
说长不长
说短不短
但大家都在极力补偿着对方
极力挽救
极力辩解
极力舒缓这闹僵的局面

希望一切变得更好
希望大家不再有误会
希望大家谅解对方

bye year 2008, say hi to year 2009

In this year,
year 2008,
another one more hour,
gonna say bye bye to it,
and say hi to following year
year 2009

In a brand new year.
I want everything of mine is organized
I want me myself can more restrict myself from being so wild
in the sense that I didn't doing the promises to myself
I want to be very serious in what am I going to do later on
I want to be more rational in dealing with my feelings
I want to be concentrate in my studies
I want to be responsible to myself
I want myself to be more self-independent
I want to be smart enough in dealing with troubles and problems
I want to be more tolerate in my temper

I will improve in my studies
I will be more responsible to myself
I will be stronger in facing challenges
There is no problems in the world
There are only challenges for me to overcome
I will be braver


Wish everyone Happy New Year!!!

变质了

在这里
虽然说没多少人知道我的部落
因为我就是那么默默无闻
虽然有人有我的部落网址
但因为自己的不够受欢迎
所以收看率超低
告诉自己
没关系啦

虽然是那么的默默无闻
虽然我说这里是说个人心情，个人意见，个人情绪
但一些话题
我还是不敢把我想写的放上来
虽然我是这么地没人知，
一些话题
我还是过滤了才敢写上来
我还是换个另外的讲述
我引用了第三人称
或我不间接地说出我想说的

怕什么
怕就像其他人好像突然攻击似的
一连串的连珠带炮地杀到我这里来
说我为何写成这个样子
怕他们好像平时一样这样赤裸裸地批评
批评到没余地
虽然说我是用不间接
也许个性的影响
我的有话快讲，有屁快放的直接性格
“出卖”我自己的写作性格
我不会是一个婉转的人

好了
讲完废话
正经的

好端端的一段友谊
维持了六，七年
在第五年
因为一些因素
开始变质了
是
对
是自己的因素
是自己造成的

了解到
覆水难收
了解到
一言既出，驷马难追
当初自己的性格
造成现在的处境

状况在第六年
好转了
但
刺还是存在的
在大家的心中

大家
可以算是敷衍
应酬对方
虽然
错的那一方
极力地补救
似对非对的那一方
似乎忽略了错的一方的极力补救
认为一切是理所当然的

错的那一方
有需要付出这么样的代价吗
似对非对的那一方
需要这么做吗
需要这么敷衍吗
需要这么不理别人的感受吗
需要这么觉得这样是理所当然吗

错的一方
已经受到惩罚了
另外一方想怎样
要绝的
就爽快一点
不要这么婆妈
你们是这样对待朋友的吗
还是你们并不当我是真正的朋友了
把还在极力补救的我给耍了

testing me

就在我把那一切放下的第二天
她传短讯给我
简单的一句“你在做么”
我也觉得很开心

拜托
请大家别想歪
我只是没想到
只认识三天的人会想要传短讯给我
我们连传了几封
虽然她回答的都很短
但至少她不是冷漠的人
只不过相比之下
我比较热情
比较多话讲
这样也好
至少没冷场

在传短讯的动作结束后
顿时
我在想
是上天要考验我吗？
他认为我还没放下？
所以“安排”这场传短讯的幕
还好我还是过关了
我赢了