终于去写了

搁了这么久的日记，
实在非常过意不去，
终于去写了，
终于去面对我须面对的，
当初一些感觉，
写不下手，
但想了想，
还是去写，
一写还写了五面 （ 我的字体大=.= ）
是写了，
但大部分是事情的经过，
及当时的心情，
并没所想象的会把自己的的那份感觉赤裸的暴露出来，
我知道我失败，
我始终写不出，
我在怕什么?
怕有人会偷看?
也许是吧...

这么多天没写，
很多事情发生，
好消息是
大部分是开心的事，
在写的时候，
也会回忆起当天的情景，
有时还会笑，（不要以为我变态，自己一个人笑 ）
但愿能把这些时光留住...

I really miss you

Hey, pal...
I really miss you...

Starting with a day in a rush,
after a tiring day,
have a chance to get myself a break,
listening to songs,
listening to a smooth song,
a song that caught my attention,
I listen to it over and over again,
because...
I know you will like it.

I think of you in the moment,
I really miss you,
I regretted why I acted so strangely that time
when you leave,
I pretended to be strong,
I tried not to cry...

I really miss you...
miss you, pal...
hope to see you soon...

hiding

Haiz...
what am I hiding?
Hiding my true feeling?
Hiding my expression?
Hiding my true words?

Writing in diary,
write my feelings,
express myself,
record everything I feel necessary
write to keep as memory,
not only in brain,
but also in real.

What am I hiding?
what am I hesitating?
why can't I just straight forward,
write it out bravely,
be brave to face my own feelings...

Tell myself,
I can't hide forever,
I need to face it after all...

what's up now?

Many things to write about actually recently, about feelings, whose? My feelings...
However, those, I wish to keep in my diary. That is the most secret thing I have without shown to the public. Only me, me and me. All about my feelings.

Again, talk about feelings, need expression in words. I need that. Told you, my English not so good, so I can't express myself well sometimes in words. No matter what language I have learnt.

Feeling restless,
without direction,
so called direction-less,

Life today starts with a scolding,
looked at the clock,
what's wrong with me?
Such time I woke. ( 15/11 )

How restless am I,
stop it
Stop It
STOP IT!!!