what a day

30/4, is the "Pesta Muzik" for Seremban 1 area.

Our school was invited to join the event. Our school team was asked to participate the choir competition. A colleague who is don't know anything about singing and music (the teacher before her is in charged in music section in my school) and another teacher also (the same thing-don't know anything) were asked. Afterwards, maybe my "talent" and my "ability" got to know by my colleague and my co-curriculum senior assistant. I was asked to in charge in the school choir team which will facing the competition today.

One thing I ever suprised was my school dare to use a temporary teacher to train their school team and also asked the temporary teacher to bring and represent the team to be the pianist. I am damn tension that time because I realised my own problem-everything will go wrong when I am nervous. I don't want to cause harm to the school team. Anyway, I am forced to overcome it (I need to) because this is the last decision of my senior assistant. Starting the days to train the students in their singing. (Honestly to say that I am not good in singing but only have the knowledge in music). That time I really don't know what exactly can I guide the students. So I change the some knowledge in music into the singing section- pitching, tuning, etc technical problems.

Those days are quite tension and make me angry also. Because the students are quite stubborn and some are arrogant somemore. But at last some who didn't behave well got scolded by me indirectly, don't want to listen to me and ... And now they seems not so arrogant. (this is what I feel)

Today in the competition, while waiting for our turn to perform. We practise for the last time. Well, I didn't scold them anymore (the psychology tactic of facing competition is not scolding students in the last minute avoiding students losing the mood to perform well ) I was very nervous at that moment until my hands shivering. Heart beats very fast. I scared I will ruin their performance just because of my nervous. Anyway, I managed to cool down because I need to behave profesionnally in front of my students. I need to act braver than my students to give them the courage. They performed quite well. My playing was good, didn't have mistake. But I didn't hope much for the victory. Group that I bring went back to school first and my colleague's group left there (because the driver who brought them is not free, so they went back late,stay there longer to wait for the result) After I back to school, I was quite nervous also. I went to my class, I missed 7 classes today. ( I asked my friend to pass my orders to the students, I just went to the class to make sure my students do the right thing) After settled the homework, I waited at my seat.

Lastly, the message came in. We got the THIRD PLACE!!! I was shocked and I jumped for the joyness. Teachers in the staff room looked at me. They congrated me. I never thought this will happened to my team. Anyway, we still did our best.

Thank god we made it!!!