My semester final is coming so soon. Normally the scene before the finals coming is everyone is looking, blaming, wondering their coursework marks for every subject. Of course, I won't be the unexceptable ones la...
However, until now, I only know two out of five subjects' coursework marks.>.<. One is quite satisfactory although not the one I want if compared to others. Really feel 不爽 and I know the person's tactic in getting so high marks for assignments, as I know the person is not really good. The other one, damn it, so low!!! I really no eye see that.>.<
The most confident subject, Physical Chemistry, the most ridiculous thing is I still don't know my coursework marks, in fact, nobody knows.
Actually, I am in between of wanna know and don't want to know my coursework marks. By the way, I wish it is as what I expected and not lower than it supposed to be la...if based on my effort and talent, it can't be lower than it should be.If not, I will be in sadness and regretful-ness and the most is I will be in "heart attack". Since I can't do anything after I know it ( even though mine is not as I expected ), so no point also for knowing it so late like that, destructing my mood only.
If I know mine, sure I want to know others. ( I am a "kiasu" person ), especially those I 不爽 to. If they get higher than me, I scared I will "lost control". So, I rather don't want to know.
当然我不能说我在化学科是很强的学生。但，至少在众多我所学的科目之中，化学是我最强，最拿手的科目。我当然不希望别人比我好。原谅我这自私的想法，因为难得“有机会出头”，你当然不想别人超越你。想象着，如果你被你不爽的人及你预想不到的人超越你，你会服气吗？答案当然是不会!!! 我会更拼，废话，这是当然的，及更偏激的，我会更虚伪地对待他们，来balance回自己。要不然，会与自己过意不去。请谅解我的心情，但别误解我的用词。
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