angry?! blaming?!

Feel very sad for your attitude
as we know for so long,
asked you about that,
maybe in the way of expressing,
it hurts or offended you,
maybe in the way of expressing make you feel that
I am not understanding, selfish,
I just feel that you are getting even further...

You explained,
don't know what kind of feeling I had that time,
felt that you are just giving excuses,
very lame excuses,
I was wishing I can accept that,
I understand what you explained,
but I was not satisfied,
a bit angry and at the same time,
sad too...
why you replied this and why I thought like that...

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This few days, my body not so feeling well, no mood for doing anything. Luckily, quite fine now.

This few days, although I have something to share with, I am free enough, but just don't know why I can't blog it out. Can't write anything for starting too. I think is because of my English level don't allow me to produce it, if not it will be a terrible piece of blog.

My mind is bothering quite a lot of stuffs recently. Some stuffs because made me sick of waiting, so I throw tantrum at home and just luckily I didn't shout or scold at the person involved.

Damn boring these few days, didn't do anything much, not because I am lazy, is just that my health problem didn't allow me to do so. ( Ke Jun, enough of excuses... )


Today felt a bit suffocated ( because of being in the sulks? can't find a channel to express my depression? or weather factor? )

I am too weak to produce a good piece now. My mind still being distracted. When my mood back to normal, I will write a better piece, can describe more and maybe more lively.

"random" thoughts

Am I still in hesitation?
too much time now,
making me think of,
am I really like...
chemistry or biochemistry?

Because I like chemistry too much?
Or is just I haven't start to love biology yet?
I love chemistry, I admit this.
But shouldn't I put the same interest and effort on biology?

My friend always praised me of my chemistry ( not now ), making me wonder, am I really like chemistry or biochemistry? Have I wasted my talent in chemistry by choosing biochemistry?

Sometimes I hope I can take chemistry and biochemistry at the same time. I hope I still have the time after finish my degree in biochemistry to pursue my dream in chemistry.

回顾

刚才看回以前写的日记 ( 今年的 ),
年头的大部分都是写教学的烦恼,
年中写的是趣事及令人欣慰的感觉,
以及一些与同事们相处的开心气氛.

说真的,
我都从未真正了解开心的感觉,
从我认识同事们开始,
一直到相处的时候,
才开始了解,
与她们( 同事兼朋友 )相处,
我渐渐了解什么叫做开心, 兴奋.
我喜欢与她们在一起.

学生的爱戴及尊敬,
是让我有股苦尽甘来的感觉.
有点想念小朋友们,
想念他们与我的互动.